JUDGING

So apparently I really upset, someone. On my blog. When I said, RETARDED. (I went and corrected it so that all the world wouldn't pass judgement on me. I just want to remind everyone, that I am not perfect. Before you start shouting and passing judgement on me or anything I say. Talk to me. I may have missed it, or maybe it was meant to be there. I can always offer an explanation. I am not perfect.. I am not set in stone. I am new to all of this.




~Amy~

Love in all the right ways.

I have a life!!!!! I know it sounds STUPID :). I said from the get-go, that this was going to be raw. I do not want to gussy up my parenting. I make horrible mistakes. ALL.THE.TIME. You have no idea! Then I proceed to beat the hell out of my self over it. The reason I want to make this a raw, non sugar coated blog, is because I see all these other parents who make it look so easy. UHHHH, HELLO!!! So, now that I have that out of the way.... 

My baby boy turned 5!!!!!

I was thinking back to when he was born. I was picturing me holding him. Nursing him. Imagining an amaing life with him. A strong healthy boy. :) I also remember hardly anything but screaming for the next 4-5 months. Me crying wondering what was wrong with him. It had gotten to the point that I knew there was nothing I could do as he screamed. So I would just turn him out on my knee and bounce him for an hour or so. one out and watch TV. I had people question how I could be so cold to my own child. I wasn't being Cold. I was just doing the only thing I could. Little did I know he was already showing signs of Autism. He wouldn't Belly laugh and was a genius! Had his ABC's down by 2!

NOW, On to my serious blogging!!! :)

JJ hit a milestone over the last week. My friend invited us to a Vacation Bible School for the kids. I eagerly said yes! This was a baptist church, and I have to say, my kids LOVED it! The first day was pretty rough. He was very unsure as I walked away, but he toughed it out! I was proud! The next day we worked a little more at it. By day 3 he told me, "Are you going to stay with me? Because I like it better when you are gone." I was so excited! So excited I almost forgot to be sad... I was VERY proud!!! He was waking up every morning asking if we were going Again!!!




My font is being silly, so forgive me....


So he is up on stage and everyone is doing the moves to the songs. JJ is right in there with them, while spinning in circles! I couldn't keep myself from laughing. Not laughing as in, 'HA HA! your weird!' It was a laugh of "You are awesome and so cute. Not a care in the world, just doing your thing!" I looked over to my friends and said, "He is screaming autism right now!" She giggled in agreement. I love what he does. His little Autism Quirks Are what makes him, him! I am so proud of him!!!  <3 <3 <3




I promise to update more soon. I have quite the rant to go on. But I didn't want to mess up the awesomness of this blog!






~AMY~